The Education of My Mother and Myself

The Education of My Mother and Myself

By Wensley Roberts

The Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines education as: “The action or process of educating or being educated, a field of study dealing with methods of teaching and learning.” My lack of education led me to this 8’ X 9’ cell that I am now forced to call home.

I did not embrace Scholastics in my youth. The school of hard knocks was my institution for teaching and learning. Pupils in attendance learned about every phase of robbery, drug distribution, and every other crime imaginable.

Sitting in my prison cell, I sometimes recall my earlier years and wonder what went wrong. My mother was a caring and willing woman who fed and clothed me to the best of her ability. She was a black single parent who could not read. However, she pushed and encouraged me to be a good student.

I remember having to read the newspaper and other documents to my mother. I was just eight years old and was already writing checks for the household bills due to her illiteracy. This continued up until I was sixteen. That’s when she kicked me out of her house for dropping out of school and doing other things she didn’t agree with or even understand.

My mother, a Jamaican immigrant, came to the United States in 1982. She worked three jobs and saved for years to bring me to this country. I came to America at the age of six. Ironically, I was issued a scholastic visa to enter this country as a student.

I am currently serving an eight-year sentence for robbery in the second degree. I have been incarcerated for four years. In that time, I obtained my GED. I have also enrolled in a few college correspondence courses.

Due to the economic downturn, I could not continue taking my college courses. My loved ones on the outside are barely getting by. Although they are willing to help support my efforts, I can’t accept their financial support. I stopped until I could pay for my education on my own. It would be unfair of me to burden them with something given to me freely on the outside, but I foolishly rejected it.

I used to believe I was a victim of the public school system. I blamed its overcrowded classrooms, overworked and under-trained teachers, and outdated books for my lack of love for scholastics. The truth is I’m the only one to blame for that and my current situation.

Politicians and others like them need to stop pointing the finger at educators. A hard look must be taken at the parents, but most of all, the students. Teachers need peace of mind to perform the task of educating. Knowledge is power, but power has to be recognized before it is wanted or obtained.

Even in the correctional system, the above statement is proven true. Inmates are provided with various programs, including vocational training programs and GED classes, and some facilities even offer free college courses. One can use these tools to prepare for the challenge of re-entering a competitive and recession-laden free society. However, a large number of inmates refused to take part in these programs.

The Department of Corrections governs prison facilities. However, correction or change of ideas and behavior starts from within the individual. It is their task to identify the cause or root of their incarceration. Be it the combination of a lack of education, drug abuse, or the lack of understanding that money can be earned by legal means if one educates him or herself in a field or skill.

I have identified that a lack of education is the seed that has bared the bitter fruit I must eat for the next four years. I have read that time lost is never found again. That being said, I plan to use my time in prison to rebuild myself. We live in a global economy, and one must stay current. That means using all the programs provided for me while I’m incarcerated.

My mother and I have been using each other as tools of motivation. A year after I obtained my GED in prison, my mother returned to school at 57. After years of being illiterate, she is now able to write articulately. This past year, she obtained her GED and is now taking senior citizen college courses.

I sincerely hope that my story can show others that it doesn’t matter if you’re old or young, male or female, black or white, in prison or out, that life is what you make of it. In my mind, the solution to the criminal element is education. I know that my education has changed the very substance of my being. I hope that it can do the same thing for you, too.

Wensley Roberts

Wensley Roberts is incarcerated at Coxsackie Correctional Facility, where he volunteers as a prison hospice worker.

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